~*placebo effects*~

sharing pengalaman nih.

gw nyimpen biji salak di meja rias.

gw komit klo setiap gw ngeliat biji salak itu, gw harus mengucap syukur, berterima kasih bahwa selama ini gw selalu dikasih kelimpahan oleh Allah SWT even on the hardest situation... kita masih bisa makan enak, masih bisa melihat keindahan dunia, bisa merasakan cinta kepada orang yang kita sayangi, masih memiliki rumah untuk ditinggali yang belum tentu orang lain bisa merasakannya, etcetera etcetera. do u realize how much u've been gifted??? its abundance!

and u know what?? efeknyanya ternyata gede benerrrr!

bukan sulap bukan sihir, every little thing that has been the obstacle to me, finally dissapeared or faded when i'm practicing it.

this is not some kind a joke or whatsoever.
ternyata "orang-orang besar" pun banyak yang mempraktekkan hal ini (bukan dengan biji salak tentunya :P)

contoh: kedokteran buat semacam obat, namanya placebo. Obat ini digunain buat penderita penyakit tertentu (gw lupa untuk penyakit apa). Ternyata para pasien banyak yang memberikan testimonial bahwa obat itu dianggap ampuh buat nyembuhin penyakitnya. And know what, para ahli pengobatan bilang bahwa sebenarnya kandungan dari obat placebo itu hanya mengandung gula (glukosa apalah namanya). See, obat dari segala kesembuhan ternyata ada di diri kita, hanya perlu dibutuhkan motivasi dari luar untuk meyakinkan diri kita bahwa kita bisa menjadi lebih baik. Motivasi yang lebih baik adalah motivasi yang bersumber dari diri kita sendiri, walaupun hal itu emang sangat sulit dilakukan. Pikiran negatif sebenarnya memang sumber dari segala penyakit. Thoughts become facts. So, berpikiran positif, berkeyakinan positif bahwa segalanya akan berjalan lancar akan menggiring kita kepada sesuatu yang kita inginkan/ harapkan.

Itulah kenapa gw nyimpen biji salak di meja rias, hanya untuk mengingatkan bahwa kita harus mensyukuri setiap derap langkah kita dalam menjalani kehidupan, akan selalu ada kelimpahan yang patut kita syukuri (yang sering tidak kita sadari), bahkan di saat tersulit sekalipun.

Hmmmm, gw dapet pengalaman ini berdasarkan literatur yang gw baca dari buku The Secret yang gw terjemahin berdasarkan pemahaman diri gw sendiri kemudian gw aplikasiin dalam kehidupan gw.

Keep trying to think positive! Obat yang baik menurut gw adalah yang berasal dari alamiah, dan menurut gw pikiran yang sehat merupakan cara yang paling alami dalam mengobati segala penyakit.

~*memaknai hidup*~

bangun-bangun bawaannya pengen nulis di blog.

mmmm, still confused what am i gonna say.

istilah yang orang pakai buat kata "love" adalah more than just a game for two.

then how many? three, four, even ten??? silly answer, huh.

if there was more than just a game, then what??

love was also life.

and life is just a game --> win and lose, fail or success, up and down, death and birth, and pairs of son on.

another "Maha Guru" said that "Hidup itu cuma senda gurau" a.k.a "Life is just a joke".

We are just the actor/ress of God's world.

If we did a good thing in this world, we gain a heaven.

The opposite, bad thing --> just go to hell.

Absolute.

Period.

~*politics*~

ketika kita bicara soal janji, alangkah baiknya apabila si pemilik janji menyadari 'satu kata satu perbuatan'..

sdh bkn jamannya qta bicara 'saya awam bila bicara mengenai politik'.. pada era skrg ini, sdh mrpkn syarat bagi bangsa yg sdg mengalami pendidikan demokrasi memahami seluk beluk dan motivasi calon pemimpin di dlm mensosialisasikan janji-janjinya..

good leadership must have:
- strong nerve on facing the conflict
- transformational leadership that can change 'nothing' into 'something'..

~*cold night*~

this day...

how many times we spent unproductive activity and then u realize that u are not supposed to do that activity...

wasted!!!!

non added value...

whatsoever...

when ure on stuck position rite now, pls tell me what am i gonna do???

gilaaaaaaaaa....

i wanna scream but i cant...

i want some'1' to rely on but i havent...

i wanna do much better but i cant believe myself that im capable...

what in the world that i living in????

is this character that i wanna share???

i cant even look at myself on a mirror when im in deep expression like this...

just... get hold of yourself, via...

setiap luka ada perihnya... (1st cut is the deepest...)
setiap sakit ada obatnya...
only that words i could trust...

i hurt myself by hurting others...
i blame others for everything i just couldnt do...

sorry...

sorry...

슬픈...

~*true friendship*~

if one day u feel like crying... call me...
i dont promise that I will make u laugh, but i can cry with u...

if one day u want to run away... dont be affraid to call me...
i dont promise to ask u to stop... but i can cry with u...

if one day u dont want to listen anybody... call me...
and i promise to be quiet...

but if one day u call me and there is no answer...
come fast to see me... perhaps i need u...

~*solitude --> nausea*~

torture...

how many peoples said that "time will heals the wound?"

b/c of the fact that its just an irony if looked at the time has passed and then we've come to realize "its mustve been that hurt"... rite??

as for me now, must live as myself...

how many time the past has approached u?

is it once a day, an hour, a minute, or even a second??

so how does the past affecting u till now??

for me... it changed me completely...

i felt uneasy now...

when u have something in ur mind, but then u realize it will be ur silent secret till ur death, will u regret it for not to tell someone??

God, i think solitude was messing me around...

pray..

pray,,

and be grateful :-)

~*two words*~

I didn't know it was love, it slowly settled upon me...
With a smile like the day's sunlight, you come my way...
I thought it might be love, it quietly crept up!!!
With eyes like the moonlight, you're smiling...
I say I want to know...
When I see you I begin to shake with nervousness,
no matter how I try to turn away and tell myself it isn't true.
I'm so in love with you...
But in the end, it's you....
I can't have it...
but when I see you, my heart is struck with pain...
No matter how I erase and forget,
I'm left with the words: in the end it wasn't me...
I know now that I've become so much like you...
When I see you, I smile...
No matter how I erase and forget,
in the end it wasn't me...
Smile again, though many things will change...
like my appearance and these old memories...
smile again despite the past days of hardships...
I've prepared something just for you. I can't let you go...
Can't you, please, look my way?
I'm standing here like this behind you,
laughing even though it hurts, smiling even though I'm sad...
I'm so in love with you, I'm right here...
Will you listen now?
To these words that I'm carefully taking out?
that I try to carefully take out,
no matter how I try to turn away and say it isn't true,
I'm left repeating these words by myself,
stay by my side, please stay...

~*just because...*~

just because u may have ur dream come true, it doesnt have to be so arrogant, rite??

today, is the day that...

lots of f***ing idea...

arrayo?? when my blood comes to my vein all over my body, it just make me burnout of nothing...

nothing...

nonetheless...

am i being masochists rite now? all i can see today is all fake, immature, and unbelievable...

just like inoue mao said...
"ARIENAI ITSUNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!"

umm..

lets begin to discuss bout other peoples live...

my classmate... lets say she's 'S'

S maybe will be get engaged with her BF on June 4th..

but, it cant be done b/c her BF got accident and he cant be helped..

God.. why do U took away someone's life that only one step away through happiness in their life??

its a Gods secret...

as for me, no one knows when we're gonna died...

pain, sad, nausea... thats all peoples through...

happiness, glad, leisure... thats all peoples aim...

for what so called "lifes to get heaven", we must take the "hell" parts 1st...

i aint nothin to do rite now...

just because...

"tomorrows sun will be rise tomorrow, so i dont want to think about anything today"

~*when the vision comes 2 mission..*~

1st hesitate... and then become struggle...

i dunno whats the different between life for work or work for life...

even if its the same, dunno why im still confused too...

oooo God, cant hardly wait for 2morro..

~*MAEUM...*~

Jantungku senat-senut...!!!

~*TRUE FEELINGS...*~

can u see where my heart is?